I am not as sharp as I used to be.
I never professed to have a steel-trap memory or the ability to retain every piece of knowledge that ever entered through two blue eyes or waxy ear canals. Although, I seem to remember a higher brain-functioning me prior to the age of 50.
Could have been a dream.
Could be I have a flexible memory.
For the last several years, I have blamed my lack of sharpness on the multi-tasking of work, intertwined with a busy personal life. As a former staff psychologist once declared, it was a matter of “cognitive overload,” or too much sh*t wandering around in the brain.
And I swear the sh*t leaked out onto my pillow every night, through the waxy ear canals, leading me to concern when I couldn’t remember one of the hundreds of processes at work or the name of the person I met 10 minutes ago.
But now I don’t have the excuse of work as I retired from that nonsense this past Wednesday. I don’t have the excuse of a busy personal life because the pandemic has brought that to a halt the past five months. I don’t have the excuse of cognitive overload unless I want to fill my brain up with information that doesn’t provide joy, entertainment, or new intelligence of my own choosing. I’m hoping the fog of too much sh*t goes away in the coming weeks as I settle into a new being – one without deadlines, Excel spreadsheets, computer programs, countless Zoom meetings, and the over-scheduling of personal activities.
A friend of mine, who retired four years ago, gave me the advice of “don’t get involved in anything for at least two months.” It was advice to give myself time to decompress and find a balance in this newfound freedom. To let my head clear and sharpen the pencils that had become dull.
It’s a wise, pointed path to take.
Then again, if retirement doesn’t serve to help the aging memory, I will always have post-it notes, email reminders, and a cell phone that reminds me when to visit the chiropractor, watch the new season of Star Trek Discovery and check for Linda’s SoCS prompt on Friday morning.
Stream of Consciousness Saturday is the brainchild of author Linda G. Hill. Every Friday, Linda provides her followers with an inspiring blogger’s prompt. It can be a word or words and sometimes bonus points are involved (my favorite). Linda asks us to write without editing, other than correcting spelling errors.
Just go with the flow.
Like a babbling brook or rain drops. Click HERE if this type of writing floats your boat or helps with your decision-making. Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “sharp.”